She was a bird
free and high.
She was an animal
galloping in green,
She was sky,
a painted face,
an open eye.
She was color
a festival of hues,
her shady face.
She was love
red like a rose
blushes and strokes.
She was heart
She was a kid
made of metal,
hot yet soothing.
She was struggle
with no meaning,
but all hope.
I GOT MY FIRST SALE ON ETSY I WAS FALLING ASLEEP BCZ I CANT KEEP MY EYES OPEN & THEN MY PHONE MADE A CASH REGISTER NOISE & SOMEONE ORDERED A RING & ITS ONLY $10 BUT IM SO EXCITED OMG!
& that’s what I just sent Ronnie…lol…but I really did just get my first sale! Now I feel strange bcz I’m exhausted to the point of involuntarily sleeping but I’m excited & feel like dancing…..what is this? Lol… I think I really should try to sleep & then make the ring. It’ll be a better quality.. Right? Right. Ok.
THANK YOU WASHINGTON DC!! You were my first!!…..haha :D
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Merrrr sorry I didn’t see this sooner! I use tumblr thru my phone & it didn’t tell me! Thanks for this btw! :)
Am I happy right now?
Yesterday, not so much.
On avg would be a yes :) … But I should mention that every day I fight myself for my happiness. I am still trying to work thru emotional issues rooted from high school when I was in the psych ward twice for self harm….along with all the other issues I had in high school. Like trusting people. & being responsible.
Being alone in several ways but here’s the top 3 (… for the rest of my life… also like a horror movie feeling when I’m in a house alone & there might be a ghost, it’s silly, I know….& when there’s high winds like tornado weather).
How do I vent my anger?
Oh…I’m not sure. Can I answer like that? Just bcz it depends what I’m angry about. Sometimes I need to hit/destroy something. Sometimes I need to work out really hard/intensely. Sometimes I need to scream & cry & rant. Sometimes I need to go somewhere completely calm & be in solitude for a long period…like meditation.
The last lie I told…..
I’m not sure. I mean maybe like a white lie when someone asked if I was ok & I said yes bcz I didn’t want to talk about it bcz I didn’t know them well enough to feel comfortable talking about it. One sticks out in my mind from last summer when my bff & I fell apart. I was mad at her & ignored her message & when she asked if I saw it I said no & she asked something about seeing Ronnie & I said I just went over or something. I can’t quite remember what was said that day bcz I was so mad at her.
Do I believe in karma?
Yes. But I’m not always clear on the getting/giving part. Like if karma uses me to return bad juju to someone, will that bad juju come back to me? Or good juju can be inserted in that situation too.
Am I happy with the person I’ve become?
Yea, I think so. I’ve surrounded myself with people who are guiding me down a good path. Motivating me, encouraging me. I’ve cut the negative ppl out of my life who were full of pessimism & were toxic. I’m still working on me but I have the right people in place to guide me down a positive path.
Ooh my biggest what if?
Uhm.. That’s tough.
Ok here we go…..what if I had died/was dead. What if I had died in high school those times I tried to kill myself….how much pain would I have caused my loved ones…too much & I don’t want to think about that…& also it reminds me of how far I’ve come in 12 years. I still have really bad days, but I’m better at dealing with me & my emotions….& part 2, if I died today. Right now. Which is also awful to think about…but I wonder is Steph would miss me. She has a tattoo for Ben & Ariana..I thought she had said she would never block out a friend again….but here we are.
Rumors about me?
Yes. My bff Steph (ex bff) told everyone I was a liar when we stopped being friends from what I heard. I think its bcz I know some of her secrets that she’s ashamed of. Or at least one in particular I’m thinking of that would cause serious issues between herself & at least one other. I’m still keeping it for now but it’s getting heavy….but I won’t tell anyone…even tho we don’t talk & prolly never will, it doesn’t seem right to give away her secrets, even if she has slandered my name/rep.
& I’m sure there’s been other rumors I just don’t know them.
Do I hold grudges?
I like to think I don’t, mostly. But I won’t talk to ss ever again. & I’m still disgusted by Jason’s attitude. I might talk to Steph if she decides to talk to me.
Ps…I’m starting to fall asleep right now…post from here on out might get wild.
Secret weapon to get someone to like me.
I have no secret weapon that I’m aware of. I’m mostly just too shy to talk, thinking I’ll just sound dumb.
Where is my bff right now?
Idk we don’t talk anymore. Sometimes I wish we did. Other times I glad we don’t. However, I do have more than one bff…
Kate, lizzy, suzy, ronnie :)
Am I the kind of friend I would want to have as a friend?
&again, sorry so long for the reply!
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